every now and then, i have an encounter that brings me to the most peaceful place... centers me, makes me smile, giggle even, and makes me feel special. this is one of them.
today, as i walked briskly through our neighborhood, i startled this young deer. i didn't see her until she scampered away from the sidewalk. i never expected, as i called out to her, that she might stop, look, even interact with me. i live in town, so i will say that deer here do not start the way they would in a deep forest. still, the fact that she stopped at the sound of my voice amazed me. it was as if i'd called to one of my dogs. i truly think for a moment she thought about walking to me, and though i did not capture that here, i can't tell you how happy i was to have my phone with me.
we stood for what felt like forever and though i didn't want our interaction to end, when all was said and done, i wanted her to go. i wanted her to be scared enough to protect herself... wanted her to not take a risk on me so that she might, ultimately, stay safe. on the other hand, in this span of sweet seconds, i imagined a life together with this little thing... meeting her for daily "hellos" and bringing her snacks and such. it's funny how the mind can want two things at once.